I realize I haven't posted much lately. I want to blame it on my summer teaching gig (which, I am delighted to say, will be over after I grade the finals next weekend), but I'm actually just a bit blocked lately. It seems many others are going through the same thing, and that the consensus is to blog through it, so I'm going to do exactly that.
I've had an oddly productive Sunday here. I usually spend the day relaxing before the week, but today I had a burst of energy and not only picked up the mess around the house but also planned out all of the back-to-school organizing we need to do in the next two weeks. It was a relief to finally capture all of those thoughts that have been buzzing around in my head and not only write them on lists but then type those lists neatly and tack them up on the fridge so the hubster and I can work on a game plan together.
I used to be this organized all of the time. I'm not good with cleaning, but I've always been great at organizing, and have always enjoyed it. And while I can (and will) ignore dust and soap scum for an embarrassingly long time, I hate the chaos of messy stacks of papers and books everywhere and feel mentally agitated every time I walk by yet another pile waiting for my attention. I used to have time to stay on top of organizing, and lived by my lists. But after becoming a mother, that all went out the window. Now, if I even have time to make a list, I can't even find it. Today I must have come across four different lists I had made sometime in the last six months, each one just adding to one of several piles of paper.
I can't blame it all on motherhood though. There is actually some truth to the image of the absentminded professor with an office full of papers and books in a state of disarray. By the time I acquired my Ph.D. I was already far less organized than I had been before, and juggling a heavy teaching load last year only added to the problem. I'm not sure what it's about, but I do know that life is far more complicated than ever before and I have a hard time staying on top of everything these days.
I am determined, however, to at least start this academic year with a tidy home, an organized office, and a plan in place for a more balanced life for each of us in this little family. Wish me luck. I'm going to need it!